Touching zero

It’s been an odd week.

I had a great time dancing last weekend at Skegness. Simply amazing, and I spent the weekend with one of my most favourite people in the world… and I would dearly love for that friendship to deepen even more.

The next day, my car engine blew up. Well, more sort of ground to a halt really. My bad – I had misinterpreted the flickering lights on the dash as an electrical fault, not an oil warning.

A few days later, I had a new one, courtesy of my step father’s ‘Rent a Wreck’ business – he actually sells (and rents) older vehicles, but they are all really good. Three hours later, the car won’t start. Having been rescued yet again by the RAC, I started to muse….

One of my friends, and an excellent divorce coach (http://www.thedivorcecoach.co.uk/) wrote to me about ‘as within, so without’ – in other words, our outer life is a reflection of our inner life – and it seemed to me that God was sending me a message.

Well, one thing I learned was to pay attention to the signs. In fact, God is always speaking, it’s just up to us how we interpret those signs. If we choose to ignore them, then our world seizes up.  As Sara said in ‘Serendipity’: “I think we make our own decisions, i just think that fate sends us little signs, and it’s how we read the signs that determines whether we’re happy or not.”

I also learnt that I need to get started. To start to make some things happen. To actually begin, and not to stall.

And I learnt that no matter how dark the place I get stranded in, no matter how far away from home… there is always a way to get home, always a way to fix the problem.

I’m starting to rebuild my business, starting to produce more products.  I’m really excited about the future, although I have a feeling that I will end up knowing that . . . “Do not forget love. It will bring you all the madness you need to unfurl yourself across the universe”

I’m also mindful of the fact that “Vitality shows not only in the ability to persist, but the ability to start over.” F. Scott Fitzgerald

More to come… as I learn to listen…